Tuesday, 29 July 2008
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WOW Worship: Aqua
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In Christ Alone
see relatedWhat if I have to trudge through life alone?
You know what scares me? Being in a relationship with someone and having to expose my vulnerabilities to him and still hold up hope that he loves me deeply entirely. Believing that because he loves me and I, him, and because of God, that I am the best person for him. Even though because of my deep love for him, I would want the absolute best for him, and yet I also know myself to be less than stellar a person, and definitely not the best.
You know what scares me more? Going through life by myself, without someone to love me by choice (and not by default, like family members), to hold me when I am scared, and support me when times are bad. No one to care whether I smile, weep, laugh or frown. Then, dying a slow, lonely, painful death and not be discovered for days.
You know what scares me most? Going either way without God. Life is so scary, and having to deal with its uncertainties without the anchor of Jesus Christ would ruin me. I guess I'm weak that way. And in that weakness of mine, God is strong.
Alone
Lying, thinking
Last night
How to find my soul a home
Where water is not thirsty
And bread loaf is not stone
I came up with one thing
And I don't believe I'm wrong
That nobody,
But nobody
Can make it out here alone.
Alone, all alone
Nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.
There are some millionaires
With money they can't use
Their wives run round like banshees
Their children sing the blues
They've got expensive doctors
To cure their hearts of stone.
But nobody
No, nobody
Can make it out here alone.
Alone, all alone
Nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.
Now if you listen closely
I'll tell you what I know
Storm clouds are gathering
The wind is gonna blow
The race of man is suffering
And I can hear the moan,
'Cause nobody,
But nobody
Can make it out here alone.
Alone, all alone
Nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.
Maya Angelou
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Comments (4)
ok ...
the honesty of this blog and of you being transparent enough to us... it's quite the breath of fresh air to me after reading this...
i kinda am there with you on this one... but from a male POV...
nonetheless... it's refreshing that honesty is still alive in many Christians and aren't replaced by self-righteous false piety...
thank you for it... and keep posting
True with God we are never alone!
Marriage does not always "fix" the loneliness. I currently have two friends who are more alone since they married then ever before. When they were dating they were clueless that their marriage would turn out this way....totally clueless, riding the love cloud!
My own feelings and emotions pretty much echo the thoughts you put into words in this post. I don't fear growing old. I do fear the ever-increasing likelihood of growing old alone. And I often get frustrated at myself when I start feeling sorry for myself because I'm single, as I look around and see so many people that are alone, many of whom I honestly feel deserve companionship more than I. My mind is a confused, muddled place anyway, that just complicates things. But I'm thankful for Jesus in your life as in mine. That relationship is far more important than any other we'll ever have, and I also can't imagine where my life would be or how I'd make it through without Jesus.
Thank you for writing this post. I initially read it this morning before work, but didn't have time to comment on it the way I wanted. It weighed on my mind today though. God wants to be our first love and our closest companion, but as our creator also understands the loneliness we often feel and our desire for human companionship. My prayer for you is that God places you on the path that leads to the one He has prepared for you, and that you keep your chin up in the meantime *hug*
I was thinking about you today for some reason! Hope all is well and hope to see your posts again :)
sometimes I share the same fears here as well ...